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summer is here and that means god bye to the damn comp and all my friends online .....NO!.....*crying a tear*......thats not fare!.....this is like my second home an i hate the fact of even thinking that it will be awhile until i get back here!.....Thats just not kool!.... Oh wel i dont have enuff mony to go buy one.....and most my friends moved away!....I feel alone and want to gofar away ... well one day i will be back on hope fully and be as happy as i was....i made so resally kool and close friends here!....i hope that everything works out for everyone and ect......Blessed may u all be!....wishing u the best great horrid night mares lol.....

evilness.....

Heres what i just found out by one of my best friends in the world.....

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." If u open this U have to repost it, guy or girl, or you will have bad luck for the rest of your life!!!!!!!............

.........Yes i had that once and my dad tore it to hell and back!!!!!!!!! .... im not wanting pitty or any such but that in which itself was a great loss to me!.....i dont think i can ever get that back!..........I am sorry and i am lost forever more i cant stand to look around and notice others have what i use to ..... Damn i wish everything would never of happend that january day!..... i would give just about anything to be bcak in the place where i belong away from the hurt and sorrow!....... :(

i mustnt say no more for it srivels my soul now enough!.....

ello again....,

Did u know that if u self pierce ur tongue ppl can get u for attempting suicide?...lol i think that is sad....i found this out after words!....well everythings fine....no pian....no blood.....no swelling ecept for when the bottem scratches the underneath of the tongue...i was so board lastnight and shit!... I find myself with high emotions always changing anymore...i cant keep happy and sad....nice and mean (well u know what im saying)....bitchy and angely or what ever theh fuck u call it apart....i hate being bi-polar sevear...it suxs!...well ok then i am going to go on the hunt for something to amuse the ppl in my mind so they be quit and dont get me kicked outt SCHOOL ....lol ...

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ello,...

well today is friday the 13th of 2005 and i am feeling a bit lucky!...Since 13 and 3 are some of my fav #s and lucky #s ...I hope that shit goes well in court today, and i dont get locked up . bc i dont think they will let me out if i do get locked up!... :) ....well so far today has been blah bc i fell asleep really early yesterday and woke up on and off...Having really weird dreams!....they puzzle me sometimes but sometimes not!....i am yet to put them all together and be samrt!....lol jk jk jk... but i am smart in my own little way!...ok what now?....oh wow my friend scott is on!....DONT FUCK WITH THE SCOTT MAN!....hes kool and one of my best friends!....I LOVE HIM TO DEATH!...lol (FIGURATIVELY SPEAKING)....we have been talking bout all kinds of shit and help each other out!...well he helps me out at least!.....ok well g2g .....

PEACE...ROCK STEADY......SKULL FUCK...
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wow i never realized how fast days go by now sometimes!...everything is going so quickly!...i still dont undersatnd why hate is such a fucking major fat ass factor in my life i have been really good for my unusuallness with ppl. and yet still they seem to hate me!...well just really not trt to understand!...all i can say that if u judge me on what u hear me talk about or in having differrent beliefs than ur self......2 words come to my mind!.......(FUCK OFF!) stay the fuck away from me then!....why run ur mouth and talk shit?....when ur just a punk ass fruit bitch (to even come up to my face and say it to me!) WTF?...well all i know is that there are some prejudace, 2 faced, tired, ass needs grounded by my foot, sorry feeling no good liars, that want self pitty bc they are jealous due to others have what they cant!....And they label and critize bc they are so fucking lame and sad for themselfs and have no life and want to be and run every one else!...I dont think this shit is right at all!....I mean yes if u dont know who u are in life and cant figure it out stop trying so damn hard!... ( before ur brain explodes out ur damn ASS!) All I know is that i am hated bc i have damn good outlooks of things for my age, i think of the forgotten, unrested, disturbed, and unknow truth!...its not my fault i was born and came to earth aas a child and im actually a human that has some fucked up feelings!...yes i have feelings too damnit!...But i guess cold hearted bitches like some i know only care for them selves and no one else ( even family!) they dont give a damn!....Well here is my littlt HELLO KITTY for YOU!.....IF U DONT LIKE ME....GO AWAY

IF U HATE ME.....DONT TAKE UR SIMPLY LITTLE DWEEBISH SHIT OUT ON ME!

IF U WANT TO HURT ME.....ID LIKE TO SEE U TRY

IF U WANT TO KILL ME .....bITCH IM ALREADY DEAD!....JUST ALIVE IN UR FUCKING HEAD!....OK NOW......look all i ask is a fair try to be a human and live and have my emotions and feelings respected too!....If u dont like that..........................................YOU CAN KISS MY WHITE LILLY ASS BITCHES!......

......ps- i feel better now!

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